Category Archives: Sailor

A professional actress, as well as writer?

Yes, seriously, I’ve been paid for performing, after so many years. I know, not strictly an actress, as I wasnt playing a part per se, I was playing a few parts in fact, under trance, for real! Thats right, I’ve ‘sold’ the link to the film twice over already, and had a couple more showing interest, not bad for a fifty something who thought her best days were behind her!

Yes, fine, as far as I know, both the buyers, and both the other interested parties want it only because they know me, I suspect, either through forums, or as a workmate. If I can get to 6 (hmm?), I will recoup the train fare, one more after that and I clear my coffee expenses for that day too lol! If I dont, I loved the day anyway, and thats the main thing. By the sound of it, ‘Mary Lou’ will be returning as a trigger, and then I’ll have the challenge of keeping her under control too! Not that I mind that in the slightest, you understand? ūüėČ

When I get stopped in the street, and asked for my autograph, then I’ll worry!

Clearly I havent yet got into diva mode though, not yet spent a penny of that money at Amazon, though I’ve been tempted by a few things, little Miss Practical in my head says ‘you really dont need that’ and I dont buy it. Maybe not, but its not costing me anything technically, so…I know, I know, get on with it, girl!

Beyond that, today has been about getting a few things done. A review written for the people who did the photo shoot, a much needed massage, and getting myself booked in at the hairdressers on Friday, for a trim and highlights/ colour. After all, a film star has to look after herself, roflmao!

Oh, and lastly, talking of film stars, and laughs, I got a bit of both when I woke up this morning. One of those group things on Facebook, is something called ‘Colorized Hollywood’ (Yes, an American group, the spelling gives that away!) which is basically shots of the old movie stars, that were therefore in black and white, and someone has added colour (proper spelling) to them. This morning, one of those was Louise Brooks, and a dear friend from work had added my name as a comment to it. I wish! Yes, I really do! But…currently wrong hair colour, no helmet fringe, and I dont think my looks match up either, but besides all that…very flattering. Jen Pawson, thanks for suggesting it was me though. x
I think the person concerned probably needs to go to Specsavers, but when I posted the photo shoot pictures, they said I looked a lot like Jean Harlow. Well yes, very flattered, but seriously. A very glamorous movie model, who died too young, and me, a middle aged transgendered person, look alike, again I wish! If anyone wants to say I do though, I dont mind the flattery, really I dont.

Given all I’ve talked about is women, could there be a more apt video than this?

Discrimination against Transgender people

I havent found any, but in a sense, that might be why I’m starting this blog. I’ve just been on one of the Trans boards I visit, to find a report about violence against a Transgender person, and what she has been doing about it.

Of course, what I’m in no position to say is how well she passes, I have no idea, I only know her through said board. Equally I know I get told that I do pass quite well, so maybe I’m just fortunate in that sense? Also, she lives in the London area, which I would have thought had areas where there were plenty of ‘idiots’ about. Maybe Yorkshire folk are more open minded, maybe they just dont realise I’m not a natural¬†woman, but…?

And please dont say its a time of day thing, I work shifts, so I come out of work on a Friday, or Saturday evening (when the drunks, and football fans¬†are plentifully about), and no one says a word, let alone threatens me (or more) at any time. I might attract the odd glance, but that really is about it¬†with me.¬†And at lunchtimes, I dont put a coat on, even¬†during the cooler months, so I’m not exactly hiding my¬†cleavage!¬†Last September in Boston, the dirtiest look I got was when using the mens toilets in Boston Airport coming back, and he was¬†making a clear point to me that it was the mens toilets I was in,¬†lol!

This time around, with the enhancers in, I will be using the ladies, wonder if I will get any reaction to that?

Dont get me wrong, I’m not saying there isnt violence and abuse towards Transgender people, because all too sadly, there is! But whether its just that I’m lucky, or whether I just pass the radar tests, is it for me to say? I wish people through the world were more open minded about the whole Trans issue, but suspect that in real life, thats never going to happen.

It will be interesting to see what happens somewhere where nobody knows me, though I’m sure Boston gives me a good guide to that, nearly all will think I’m a woman! Just as well, because hopefully, rain permitting, I probably wont need a coat in Seattle at the end of April. So Stevie Lou will be busting out all over lol!

Ah, you want a video, let me see…what might be suitable? Shall I go with

PS, If anyone wants to spoil a fifty something lady in Seattle between the 22nd and 27th, let me know in advance, I’ll bring a nice dress with me! No, I wont be holding my breath for offers lol!