So fine, you might have had a long wait for a blog, but then, assuming I can come up with an idea for tomorrow, 3 come along together at once! Yes, bank holiday weekend bonus for my readers. By the way, if anyone has any requests for tomorrow night, feel free to suggest away. I do have one amusing idea, but I would need to get permission off someone to post it, so possibly not?
One thing I knew I wanted when I started to transition was a decent cleavage. Not anything ridiculous, just enough to make it clear I was woman, but something more than the little natural bumps that I have. For many women, this choice involves lots of money, some invasive surgery, and a bit of a health risk issue. Yes, breast enhancement, or as it is better known, a boob job!
Well, given that I’m not a fan of health risks, and more surgery than I really need, and the fact I didnt have the money, I looked for alternative ideas, for ways to have a nice cleavage, without the pain, or the money. What I found, and have used are a similar breast form to the ones they offer to women who have had to have mastectomies, though given the price I pay, I’m sure mine arent as good as those ones. But given they’re made of silicon, they mould to the body nicely, they have a suitable weight to them, and in truth, in a bra, under an item of clothing where you cant see them, they give you a nice shape. Fine, they wouldnt work in a cleavage revealing dress, but as I hardly ever would need to wear something like that, not an issue. Alright, it might be fun if I could, but I get by without that, all the same.
As you might guess, especially given that I wear mine full time, other than when in bed (I have a foam pair for that time), they have a limited life span, of about 2 years, or so. For about 6-8 weeks or so, its fair to say that the left breast has needed replacing, because the skin surrounding the silicon has started to split, and though leakage is pretty much non existent, and therefore its usable, its not at its best. And then, in the last week or so, the right one has started to do the same, so I’ve ordered a new pair. Probably not bad timing before LA, in truth. So yes, I jokingly posted on Facebook that I’d put myself in for a boob job, but this is as good as it gets.
Mind, if someone wants to pay for me to go under the knife, and get a ‘natural’ pair of boobs, feel free to make an offer lol! I have to say, that in public life, my current system works nicely, there has been a few occasions when mens eyes have failed to raise higher than my cleavage, it has to be said. But fine, in the unlikely event I had to ‘lose a few layers’, it might come as a disappointment to some! So, as I say, if someone else wants to pay, I might brave it lol, would be more fun for September, and the wedding I’m a bridesmaid at, for sure. So…? 😉
Right, video time. As so often, a clue in the blog title, though I did tweak it a bit!
In truth, I’m not quite sure why I’m posting this tonight, because then I’ve got to come up with 2 more blog ideas this weekend (any suggestions, feel free to comment), but hey, while its still clear in my head, lets roll with it.
Yesterday, at the end of the working day, I did my daily dash for Bradford Interchange, where I pick up the bus for my journey back to Huddersfield, and home. And no, I dont redo my hair, my makeup (ha ha), or anything else before I set off home. So fine, I look far from perfect by then. Some might say I look far from perfect at all times, but anyway, less of that!
Most of the walk was fine (unlike the actual bus journeys, but besides that…) until I got near the entrance of the Interchange. There, sat on the wall, were 4 men, who I would guess were a bit older than me, or about my age, as in truth, I wasnt looking closely at them, being more focused on getting to the bus station section in time to get the bus home, than anything else. But yes, they were nothing special, that was going to make a woman swoon!
So, just after I’d passed them, one of them said, probably louder than he planned to (or maybe he did want me to hear?), “Well, if beauty is supposed to be skin deep, she was born inside out.”
Yes, ouch, though given I’m trans, and given I wasnt showing my best look at the time, I probably didnt paint the prettiest picture. But fine, what made me smile, despite that comment, was what one of the others replied.
“Yeah, but did you see the size of her tits, they were great!”
So yes, flattered or otherwise about my looks, he liked my tits lol! At least he didnt do a Trump, and grab for my pussy, might have got a shock if he had. Mind, supposedly, Trump attempted to grab Ru Paul’s pussy one time, many years ago, the sight of his face must have been a treat. The story says that he hastily left the party after that lol. How true that is, no idea, but in truth, with all that has come out of late, it wouldnt surprise me if it was true.
So, is it fair to say, my face could do with a major makeover, but clearly my boobs dont! Of course, they are far from natural, but dont tell the poor guy that!
The video. Well, what one part of my body clearly was, even if the rest of me might not have met with the same approval!
So fine, when I wrote the Robin Williams tribute last night, I wasnt seriously expecting to cover the same ground tonight. But lo and behold, when I woke this morning, it was to the news that Lauren Bacall had gone to her maker overnight, admittedly at a far grander age of 89, and not by her own hands.
Its a sad fact for folks like me, but the number of stars from that ‘Golden Age’ of Hollywood is nearly gone. Day, De Havilland, and Reynolds are 3 names that come to mind, and I’m sure there are others, but not many. Hard to believe that its not that long that we lost our last connection to the silent era, but then again, she was about 113 when she died! Not the normal lifespan lol!
I guess, to bring up the line from so long ago, Bogart whistled, and Bacall came.
Rest in peace, Lauren.
I’ll include the video at this point, it seems the right place. Another who has departed this world, a beautiful song
Right, and on a more light hearted note…
Some time ago, in a charity shop in Wakefield, I found a top that looked like it had appeared from the 1920’s, and said, buy me. The label in it definitely isnt that modern, but whether its genuine vintage, who knows? Lets just say that in the area of the boobs, its definitely a V cut. So fine, this week, I felt guilty about never actually wearing it, so I’ve put it on. Now, all this might not be helped by the bra I’ve got on, I’ve a feeling its one of those ‘push you up’ bras, so the combination of the 2…has my boobs shouting quite loudly, ‘hello boys!’
Now I know some Trans folk quite like to flaunt their figure, but I’m not one of them!
I think part of the thing is, that girls, back in the 1920’s tended to either have very small boobs, or barely anything at all. Whereas modern girls…lets just say that 20’s tops are not designed for modern cleavages, unless you want them to poke a man’s eyes out.
OK, some might say, it might help me find a man, but do I really want a man who could only possibly love me for them? So fine, when I went out this afternoon, I put on a different top, one that kept my ‘puppies’ under wraps, so to speak.
Given that one guy, in a car, noticed them anyway, is beside the point, god knows what he would have done had I been wearing this top, had a crash, probably! But fine, given I dont want my boobs regarded as weapons of mass destruction, I definitely had better not wear this top out.
I love it, but…I’m a 30’s girl, fuller figured, not a flat chested flapper lol!
Ah well, live and learn…
Well, for those of you who care enough to read this, I didnt get one comment on my ‘new look’ at work, says it all really! The fun thing I’ve discovered is that if you run down the street, or across the road, these will bounce, jiggle, or however you like to put it, just like real breasts would, even when encased in a bra. Fine when you get used to it, as I’m beginning to, but a bit of a shock the first time it happens.
The other intriguing factor is that the acceptance rate seems to have gone up again, now whether thats just because I havent run into the wrong crowd yet (Friday and Saturday evening in Leeds should be a clue on that), or whether the fact that these beauties look so real, that people think they must be! Either that, or people are just getting used to that strange woman by now lol!
I have to say it though, I’m glad I’ve got the foam ones to sleep in, and yes, they are very comfortable for doing so, but no sensation, or bounce with them, but thats hardly a surprise.
You know that thing about the countdown to a holiday? Yes, 9 more days, 7 more shifts, all in a row, so its going to be a long stretch from here. But yes, its getting nearer to the big day, cant wait. No, not risking these through security at the airport, I will wear the foam ones for that, still give me a very good curve, and thats the main thing.
Beyond that, the news. Well, I’m hoping the picture shoot snaps arrive before I go, but suspect it will be a close thing, but would be nice to have them to take away. Oh, and the latest story is up too, hopefully it sells a few more than the last one did!…rolls eyes…
If you want to make an old author happy, then go to https://www.smashwords.com/profile/view/merrybrooks and see if one takes your fancy. They are also at Amazon and Barnes and Noble, but dont want to weigh you down with too many links, just check out the author name.
A clue to the story, well, this might be one,
though the one in my story is less planned than this. Seriously, if this was real, will someone please buy me a trip! Mind, some would want to make it a one way trip for me, but even then, I might not object!
This will be it for a week or so, as I say, work calls. I’ll try and do 1 more before the holiday though. But for now…
As regular readers might know, I cheat a bit with my cleavage. Dont get me wrong, I’m not entirely flat chested, just that they arent really very noticeable without a little help, so I’ve tended to give them just that in recent times. And yes, since changing gender, thats pretty much full time that my cleavage has had a boost, so that I look good, feel good and all that.
So what’s new, you ask? Well, those silicon breast enhancers may have a much longer life nowadays (even when worn full time), but eventually they begin to break up, and you need to get a new pair. In the old days, the gel was far more liquid than now, and you would tend to notice the leaks. Nowadays, the gel is a different standard, and its the casing that gives, not the gel.
So yes, in the last few months, the signs of wear and tear started to show, and given the holiday in 2 weeks, now seemed a good time to get a new pair. The only thing is with enhancers, they give you cleavage, but they dont look quite right when used on their own. Not surprising really, they are designed as a boost, not a boob!
So this time I decided to splash out a little more, and get a pair of actual breast forms instead. They will look more natural (when covered at least), give a better all round curve, and therefore add to the effect. Yes, they are heavier, but there is more of it, so the weight is spread, or so I thought?
They arrived today, I’m wearing them now. Yes, the curve is far more noticeable, shall we say, and the change is definitely going to get noticed at work, as the whole breast is much larger than before. Should be fun tomorrow lol! The weight, yes, I’ve noticed it. The enhancers were 260g each, and I knew I was wearing them. These are 400g each! I’m only glad I also got a pair of foam ones, which will be much lighter for sleeping in. I probably could sleep in these, but I think I’d wake myself everytime I moved! The foam ones will also be used when flying of course, no more entertainment with airport security lol, while still giving me a full breasted look!
No, its not all negative, far from it. They look fantastic, and they jiggle and bounce much as natural breasts would, whereas the enhancers got put in position, and that was it! I love them already, but they are going to take a bit of getting used to, thats for sure. I know, give it a couple of weeks, I wont even remember what it was like with just enhancers, but today…
I might have to be selective with my dresses in the future, because these beauties will be harder to hide, or disguise!
The video, no, I’m not a 36D, I’m a 38 inch chest for starters, and I dont think I’m D cup wearing these, even if just at this moment I feel like Dolly Parton with them on! But other than ‘Islands in the stream’, I couldnt think of anything more apt!
Sorry, I’m not normally one for piling on the dirt on anyone, well other than Trans Pennine Express at least, but…This is the tale of a company dropping themselves further and further into a hole, lol
If you read yesterdays piece, you know by now that AA (for short) misfired with the plane to Chicago, the only reason we were ever given being an operational decision. What that excuse means, anybody’s guess? But no, that isnt the cause of todays hilarity, this is.
Just over a month ago, I sent an email to their customer services dept re wearing my enhancers while flying with them. Given they dont do security issues, the TSA do over here, and they were more than happy for me to wear them, this should be straightforward, anything but!
Principally, until this morning, Seattle time, I never heard back from them. That is, over a month, for a 6 line email! So, as is already known, I wore them for the flight Saturday, and again the bonus, oh dear we messed up and had to rearrange, flight on Sunday on to here. Not a problem, not a murmur from anyone, as James would say, they probably assumed they were naturally me, I wish!
So, ah ha, this morning I have an email from AA concerning my query. No, not the one about possible compensation for my hotel bill for Saturday created at Manchester Airport, which I by now assumed, but this ancient email sent over a month ago! Basically, unless the enhancers were surgically implanted (which I had told them they werent), I shouldnt wear them on the flight when I made it, even though the TSA said it was fine to do so!
Sadly, the email was sent from one of those ‘no reply’ addresses that so many firms seem to employ nowadays, or I would have broken the news to them, that too late, it had already happened…twice! In a sense now, I’m glad it didnt arrive, and that I just went with TSA advice instead!
I’d been told by a friend that AA had gone downhill since the liquidation protection thing, and sad to say, they werent joking. The crew on board the planes were good,but customer service, and reliability seem to have gone out of the window with this firm. Fortunately, in September, I’m flying with Aer Lingus!
The video, an extremely loose connection, thats all. AA’s local flight thing is called American Eagle, and so…
No, its not really been that dramatic a weekend, though it might have felt it at times. Facebook contacts already should know the basic details, but… The frightening thing is, this isnt the worst trip to the US, or maybe technically it is, because the other time I didnt get here!
Now, to be fair to American Airlines, I knew there were problems of a major kind, even before I left home Saturday morning. What I didnt know was the exact details. And given that I had to be at the airport for 8.40 (2 hours before flight), and their customer services dont open till 8.30 on a Saturday…
I’ll admit it, we didnt get there for 8.40, even though we left in plenty of time, because in all her panic, some daft blonde, namely me, forgot her handbag, with all the important stuff in it! Got there for 8.50, hoping I was going to get an alternate routing, but no. Long and short of it, case is booked in, and then I have a choice, 11 hours of boredom at the airport (given the battery life is about an hour on the laptop), or pay up, and come home for 5 hours or so. Yes, I did the latter, and glad I did, when I found out in the evening that you now only get half an hour of free internet at the airport, unlike before!
We finally take off about 9.30pm, instead of 10.40 am, and arrive in Chicago about 11.45 their time. Immigration are fine, once they decide everyone goes through in one line, instead of the usual separation for US citizens, which put us in the wrong queue. But itwas so short, that by about 12.10, I’m picking up baggage, plus hotel vouchers, and my flight ticket for this morning.
So yes, I finally got here today, arrived at the hotel about midday, after a short delay for baggage, and waiting for the shuttle bus. Sadly plans for the afternoon Mariners game therefore get wiped out, given it was a 1.10 start, and I’m at least 45 minutes from town! Did contemplate a late start as its the only game I could get to this week, but then the shuttle bus had vanished by the time I’d unpacked, so…they lost anyway, shock horror, not!
Oh, did I mention its been in the 70’s over here today, and just walking around in a light top this afternoon, showing off the cleavage and all that. Same tomorrow, but then the weather is forecast to go downhill, ah well…Will have to go up Space Needle tomorrow before all you can see from the top is rain, lol! Ironically, the area I plan to be in next April is being forecast for 5-8 inches of snow! And no, that isnt Alaska either!
And in case anyone was wondering, TSA were right, just went straight through security absolutely fine both times! Mind, that wasnt the body scanner, might have been different if it had been, but should still have been fine after a pat down, so they tell me.
So yes, you can understand the choice of music, in an ironic wayl
I do wonder if some might see this as a lazy way of posting my news on Facebook lol!
Yes, my bags are packed (well excluding laptop at least, obviously), and I’m ready to go, though as things stand, I have no plans to wear anyone’s wedding ring lol! If anyone hasnt worked out the song already, be ashamed of yourself! Unlike the singers though, I do know when I’ll be back again, well unless something amazing (or tragic?) happens anyway.
I was actually one out on the count of workdays, ended up being offered yesterday’s short shift as holiday, and I didnt say no, cant think why! And strictly, I havent yet packed the enhancers (will swop over tonight to the old pair), or shaver, for obvious reasons. There isnt much hair, but I want to be smooth for tomorrow, lets face it, its going to be a long day! Need to remember to use the ladies toilets too, if I’m busting out, that should be fun!
So yes, the next post will be from Seattle, at some point on Sunday, or Monday I suspect, so watch this space then. I suspect the main highlights at that point will be what airport security makes of the enhancers, whether I remembered to use the correct toilets, and if the Mariners won lol! Going to the game on Sunday, forecast is for a good day, hope thats right.
So miss me (I know, its kiss, but…lol), and smile for me, promise that you’ll wait for me, and all that, and I promise to write again from Seattle.
The video, only question is the artist, its…
A great song, from a great musical, Carousel. Though the featured version here is the version I remember from the 1960’s, not actually from the musical, or film.
The thing is, for many transgender people, thats the opposite polarity to what they face in life, far too many are just left to fend for themselves as best they can. And lets face it, for far too many, it doesnt work. Its why suicide rates amongst transgender people are so high, its coping with being who you are in the world, where far too many people just want to take a blinkered attitiude to the problem.
As for depression rates, well, you really dont want to know how bad they are, though its not hard to work out why, is it? And unfortunately, it sometimes leads to the fact mentioned above. And yes, I suffered from depression for far too long, ironically without really knowing why, beyond the fact that something was wrong with me, but what, I hadnt a clue. But no, not any more, well not because of transgenderism at least. And yes, what I’ve got at the moment is more annoyance with certain people, than depression, though they are making me wonder why I bother at times. And no, as far as I know, no one reading this, or related to anyone reading this is the target of my venom either.
Thankfully, I dont have to walk alone, got a number of good friends who support me through this, and a few others who seemingly admire me for what I do, and have done. But many others dont have it so easy, and even for people like me, there are still a number who dont like what they see, and try to make life hard, but I’m doing my best to ignore them, but a few are in a position where thats easier said than done, but even so…
On a lighter note, there will be one (or technically two) walks alone that will be interesting on Saturday, the ones through security at the airports, while wearing my enhancers. I’m told everything should be fine, but I’m planning to use an old pair all the same, just in case and all that! They are probably right, I’ll suddenly realise I’m through, and laugh, but…its more the TSA at Chicago that worries me in that sense, you hear so many tales, but they’ve told me it will be fine, so…
Hopefully there will be one more post before I go, Friday, when I’m certain of my freedom from somewhere lol, I’m sure. I promise, that will be more cheery than this one, though it might be cheesy as well. I will post from Seattle when possible, for those who want to know, and to let you know what security was like, I guess.
The song, well I’ve given it away already, I would say? So just enjoy (in black and white)
Well, so they tell us, today was officially the spring equinox, so I guess they must be right? Somehow, around here at least, if that was winter, it was definitely quite a tame one. Somehow I suspect we wont get away with it that lightly somehow? The old joke about snow at the start of the cricket season next month, quite possible I suspect?
And yes, the clocks go forward this weekend (in the UK at least, before my North American friends say something) which means the loss of an hour of precious sleep. And yes, I’m working both days this weekend, so I will notice it lol! Thankfully for me at least, not too narrow a split, so I’m sure I’ll survive. And I will get that hour back… eventually! The irony is we spend me more of the year on summer time, than on the natural time zone, but hey, if thats what the politicians want…? I’ve never been one to quite grasp the logic of why we do it, but I suspect most people feel the same way?
Well, in a sense at least, the countdown to my holiday has sort of begun. Had my nails painted (or more correctly, gelled) today, and the next time that will happen is the day before my holiday, appointment already made. Will get the full work over then, including waxing one or two places, but not anything too painful lol. Plus the much needed massage and facial, a girl has to look her best after all. I need to get my hair coloured as well, I’m amazed how well the extensions are holding up though, I must say.
This holiday will have at least one original moment, the need to use the ladies toilets while out, assuming I can actually find any public toilets in the US! Now I’m wearing the enhancers full time, any possibility of choice goes straight out the window lol! But as I seem to pass to most Americans, I’m probably worrying far more than I need to anyway! Distinct likelihood I will be flying wearing them too, as it seems there is no problem getting through airport security wearing them, according to Manchester Airport, and the TSA. I do need a new pair though, so ideally I can get them before I go, pack them in the case, and wear the old pair for flying, just in case anything does crop up. Last year I flew as a relatively flat chested lady, whereas this year, a bit more buxom lol!
Back to work tomorrow, so I dont quite know when the next blog will be, but currently the shifts arent so horrendous, so I might get a chance before Monday, next day off. Mind, given how many viewings I’m getting here of late, maybe I shouldnt worry so much about that?
Lastly, the video. Sorry, its a bit old, 82 years old to be exact. But I typed Spring is here on You Tube, and this is the first thing that came up. Besides, its from an era that a flapper should feel at home with, and so…
Oh, and talking of that. I had one of those style test things sent to me in an email by TK Maxx. Guess what, I came up as a Gatsby Girl, shock horror! Rofl 😉