Category Archives: Dreams and plans

When I was young, I used to act…

I’ll give you one piece of warning, if anyone can work out the video from that, I’m amazed, because its about the biggest double bluff I’ve ever thrown! So no, it definitely isnt ‘Family Tree’, just saying.

Given that I’ve not asked permission, and its a Facebook friend I dont really know personally, I’m not going to say who it was, or provide any sort of link to it, but this morning they posted about considering going to Art School, instead of maybe what they see as a more sensible career. Me, I’d say go for it, if its your wish, regardless. Because the one thing you dont want to be doing in 40 years time, like I could be, is wondering where it might have led you, if you’d taken the braver step. Who knows, it might be for the better, it might be for the worse, but if its your ambition, then go for it!

As I said in the title, when I was young, I used to act. It started in Primary school, continued through Grammar school as a serious thing, even if in truth, I might not have been the worlds greatest actor, but who knows? If I’d gone to Drama courses, at university or something, after school, I might be anywhere now. Hollywood? Well, maybe? I doubt it somehow, but I might be earning a steady salary in the theater, or movies, or…but no, I’m working in an office instead. Its a nice office, dont get me wrong, but if I’d set out to fulfil my dream?

The first few years after I left school (no university, family needs meant I had to get to work ASAP), I did my best to carry on, but once I started commuting further afield to London, it had to take a back seat. I did do some more once in Somerset/Dorset in the 90’s, which was fun, local, and nice to do again. And like riding a bike, I would say I hadnt lost the technique.

Since then, not a lot, and in more recent years, nothing at all, in truth. Why, I suspect at first it was the questions I was asking myself about my gender, and then work, and everything else, its ground pretty much to a halt. I’d like to think that one day I will get the call, pick up again, and get back to it, though I doubt it now. One friend ‘foresees’ I will, but maybe I’m more practical than her, in accepting that no, my dream of being a star actress (nowadays) are pretty much gone.

Do I regret that? Yes, probably I do, but thats life for me, I guess, and I have to accept that. But do I wonder, if things had been different, and I’d done drama courses, and more, after I’d finished school, either at a drama school, or university, whether I might have made it? Yes, of course I do, even if the chances it would have happened might be slim, there would have been that chance, so…

The other interesting thought, especially if I’d played a few more female roles (I really should have taken the hint!) later on, would I have transitioned at a younger age, made it truly as an actress? Again, I’ll never know, but…

So yes, this comment is aimed more at the young, or younger people reading this. If you have a dream for yourself, go for it. If it doesnt work out, you can always get a ‘real job’ later, but give it a try. Just dont be, in 30 or 40 years time, be typing on whatever computer, or related device you’re using by then, your thoughts on wondering what might have been, just saying.

Right, video time. Its not the blog title, but you could say its what I’ve been doing in here. This version is a live version from last year, which truly has the singer reflecting on his life.

This one, 47 years earlier, from the year I changed to Grammar School, is the original version

Maybe something will happen?

In reference to an earlier posting on the blog, I do now know what was going on, and all I can say is that I find all the interest in dull old me, to be very flattering. To be honest, beyond the mild bafflement, I’d stop thinking about it, but yes, I’m glad I know. And no, I’m not saying more than that! Those that need to know will know, and those who dont, still dont know lol!

Given my record in winning anything, I dont expect anything to come of it, but you never know? We had an email at work, offering the chance to fulfil a dream, as long as it was a realistic, and achievable one. Oh, and not too expensive either, so bang goes the flight into space lol! No, actually that doesnt impress me much, to quote Shania Twain, but lets face it, I was looking for something totally impractical. Also counts out asking for the vaginaplasty to be paid for by the firm, on grounds of expense. Yes, I’m being silly, but its been a long week, and still one day to go (two before a day off, after a week)

So, being realistic, what dream could I hope to fulfil, that a budget stretched Yorkshire girl is never going to justify as an expense to myself? I know, a good makeover, and photo session where I look good, and hopefully more feminine than I can normally achieve. So thats what I applied for, just in case its my one lucky day when they do the draw. If they’re good, I might even post some here, but given my record in winning anything, dont hold your breath lol! Dont expect a Cinderella type ballgown either, I dont have any in my wardrobe, for some strange reason lol!

The other considered option was one of these luxury spa visits, especially given I could get treatments on my less than perfect body (bad back and knees, dry skin. You name it, I’ve probably…!) that I could get. But that I see as a one off thing, no lasting memories, whereas something that will always leave a lasting reminder, much better?

I dont think they can achieve the dream of a decent train service for me lol! Nor making the Buffalo Bills look like a decent team. Fulfil a dream, yes, perform miracles, no!

Ah, I hear you asking, where’s the video, so here it is.  Abba, not for the first time, and pretty obvious which song

Where do you go to?

Right, lets see if we can generate any audience participation other than the wonderful James! Come out you lurkers, and post lol!

So where do you go to, my lovelies, when you’re alone in your bed? And anyone who says to sleep will be shot through the magic of internet powers lol. Do you dream a little dream of me, I doubt it very much? And yes, one of those is a massive clue to the video at the end.

The interesting thing is, that if I dream, I’m a proper woman, no issues with my body, maybe its telling me something? Quite a joy that in all honesty, though to be fair, I do look much the same, some might say unfortunately, but I’d never say that!

But no, this isnt really about dreams, more about dream destinations. Where do you yearn to return to, where do you want to go for the first time. I think I’ve written often enough about where I want to go back to again, and I’ve mentioned at least one place, Alaska, especially Nome that I’d love to visit, but suspect I never will. Churchill as well has been mentioned, what is it with me and cold places in winter? Maybe I’m hoping something might get frozen and fall off lol?

But now, I need to start looking closer to home as well, the body is hinting that long distance travel will have to come to a halt at some point, so…Alright, cold, there’s Svalbard on my list nearer to home, but…I think the cities on the top of my list for when the body can only take trips to Europe are probably Prague and Vienna, never been to either yet. But hopefully it will be a while yet before I have to cut back that far, fingers crossed for that. Naples, Paris, no, not been to either, though I’ve flown to Naples airport on the way to a holiday near Amalfi, but didnt see the city at all. Yes, more hints about the video lol! Cant say either are near the top of my list though.

So where do my readers go, not in your bed, but on your dream trips you’ve done, and dream trips you long to do. I know from the stats its not just me and James here, but we seem to be the only ones posting, so type away please. Talking of stats, the ‘other’ blog has twice the hits of this one, despite less publicity, ironic isnt it?

OK, the video. This wasnt my first choice, but then I thought about it, listened to a few more videos at You Tube, and lo and behold, a 60’s song, not an 80’s one, though this is a much more recent live version, the full version, not the single one. Oh alright, despite the suggestions, it is the one relating to the title here. No, I have no idea who he was singing it about, I was only 9 when this first came out. All I know is I loved it then, and I dont think its aged at all.

PS It would have been Belinda Carlisle, and you probably will get it sometime soon!