Its funny how things work out, isnt it? Or is it just the new female me?
I’ll openly admit, that back in 2001, when I finished managing various betting shops, something I’d done for over 20 years in total by then, I said, never again, that I just wanted to be a humble worker after that. I know, but the idea of being in charge for so long, for the shy, confused me (I discovered the trans thing just over a year before then, but was still having acceptance issues for a while, mother problems with it, lol), I’d had enough, and just wanted to be a humble worker after that, no great power.
Fine, it didnt work totally, given I got promoted to a new, more important team at Farnell, and I ended up as an Escalated grade agent at William Hill, but strictly, no management involved. So fine!
Then I got to my current job, and maybe its the atmosphere, maybe its just that the ‘old girl’ is slightly more ambitious than the male version of me (without a shadow of doubt, thats true), and I’ve started to think about improving myself again, and maybe end my working career in one last bout of management glory.
So yes, baby steps, nothing dramatic as yet, but I’m covering as team leader next week at work, for the first time. Incredibly, if in temporary role only, it will be my first time leading people for 17 years, but I’m looking forward to the experience. On paper, its for a week. In practice, due to the way things play out, I’ll get a whole 2 days as team leader this time around. Yes, that wont be it, will be doing it again later this year, if all goes to plan.
Why you ask, 2 days, when I do a 4 day week? Well, Friday is Good Friday, so a Bank Holiday, so we wont be open. Wednesday, I’ve got a meeting in Newcastle to go to, for the LGBT related committee I’m a member of. Oh, to add to the amusement, the Saturday, I’ll probably be the only one of my team in, as its not our Saturday to be working as a team, this one is. Still, will allow me to catch up on things, at my own pace, so probably not a bad thing!
After that, will wait and see? Certainly the next time vacancies come up for that role within the whole office, I’ll definitely consider going for it, providing I enjoy the experience next week. Whether I’d get it, who knows, but if I dont, it would be more down to my lack of talents in the ‘selling yourself’ front, than any issue of being Trans! And yes, the former has never been a strong point of mine, shall we say? But no, I think all the ‘Sir Humphrey Appleby’s ‘ of the world dont need to panic lol! But taking that first step forward again, yes, I think I’m ready for it, as a woman!
Video time. Normally its hard to find really old songs, with a genuine live performance, even so with some groups, like the Carpenters. But tonight…